Kumāra bharana in Sanskrit means “achievement of conception, maintenance of pregnancy, and a healthy baby.”

I took interest in Ob/Gyn at the age of 3 when I witnessed a woman give birth. I thought then that women’s ability to give birth was the greatest magic on Earth. The experience mesmerized me and linked me further into communing with the Divine. I had a conversation with God and Christ about the new baby and how magical it was. Without ever having been introduced to any religion, God and Christ were my constant companions with whom I did everything and shared all my inner conversations and thoughts with. I did so, because I was a fortunate little girl who spent my days from dawn to sunset alone roaming forests and planting food. Why Christ? My memory precedes my current birth, and there, Christ was a friend. So, in this lifetime, our friendship has continued.

Why our birth as a baby, our Soul’s embodiment fascinates me?

I’d like to share my story earlier than the day I witnessed the miraculous birth of the child.

This new life of roaming forests from dawn to sunset began after my older brother had died in my arms at the age of 2. I was later placed into a new family that were farmers in a village. My new mother loved me like Divine Mother herself if she were to come into human form, yet my yearning for my biological mother at that age could not be satisfied by anyone else but her. Thus, having already experienced the separation from my brother who was my best friend, with whom I had a telepathic communication with because I did not have nor needed human verbal language then, I stayed open to our spiritual nature as children do. Prior to my brother’s transition, I was not using words to communicate, however, I clearly remember that as soon as my brother had transitioned, my brain downloaded rapidly verbal language.  My brain needed to shift very fast because I needed to tell my mother about the death of my brother and how I had tried to revive him. 

Though I started communicating with words on that day, I was much more in tune with the divine world than with human world because I understood my brother just went home by leaving his body. In the outside world around me, I was witnessing everything in energetic form and had assumed that was the case for my grieving mother. There was no sorrow in me because nature was revealing to me its golden lights everywhere and how potent life was all around me. I existed in that constant state of joy and wonder unless an adult came around to play or love and feed me. When a few months later, I was taken away from my biological mother without her knowledge, my constant companion was the Divine that was present everywhere no matter where I went or with whom I lived. 

At the age of three, now living with my second amazing mother in a village, one glorious morning, I witnessed a pregnant woman go to take a shower but went into labor. Her labor was short … her mother went into the shower with her… and then they came out with a baby! Whao!!! How glorious is the mystery of this magical golden light all around called life? I was mesmerized beyond words. My soul uplifted and I was filled with a bliss I could not describe. I was in awe of witnessing the miracle of all Miracles: birth of a new Soul into human form! And of course, God and Christ had to talk to me about it because as a 3 years-old human, my brain was asking God all kinds of questions but most importantly, I was telling God and Jesus the magic of the whole thing.  I must say it has never occurred to me to talk to human adults around me about anything because I had assumed that everyone was talking to God and probably experiencing the same thing as I was.

Stepping into Western (Allopathic) Medicine

Fast forward years later, in a new country, new parents, new language, new culture, new people, behaviors and social norms are different…. I went through middle school and high school and now in college at George Washington University in D.C. I was fortunate despite many challenges, to find an incredible Ob/Gyn doctor Elizabeth Garreau who took me under her wings and allowed me to intern with her during surgeries at the hospital and during patients visits in her private office. I witnessed births, surgeries to correct women’s reproductive diseases complications, and I witnessed death of twins in a perfectly healthy pregnancy that suddenly at term, ended in stillbirths! What was this? Why would a healthy pregnancy with a seemingly happy woman suddenly end in such a devastating way? 

I was shy, insecure, fragile, confused… and had somewhat disconnected long time ago with my deep conscious connection with Christ and God because after changing families and cultures, my human mind had come to the realization that human adults did not care or have much any connection with God… most of them did not even believe in God… to fit in my human relationships, I had lost the close communication I had before… and the devastating effect of that loss was that I had become a very weak person with lots of insecurities and absolutely had no idea what or how people around me felt or what they wanted from me. In my attempt to make sure they were okay in my presence, I became overly polite and overbearing. This insecurity caused me such a fear that I became so shamed for waking up my medical mentor Dr. Garreau  in the middle of the night to find out what time she wanted me at the hospital the next day. She was humanly visibly irritated considering she barely had any sleep and thought I was calling because of an emergency delivery… I could not handle having disturbed her, so I stopped interning with her.

I went on to intern at the National Institute of Health (NIH) in the pediatric department… here I witnessed children under all kinds of health conditions with parents holding on to their faith and hope that the doctors will surely find a solution to the incurable diseases their children were suffering! Then there were those in coma and I would play music for them on a lap harp… but not being a musician, I felt like a fraud that I attempted to sooth those in coma with some music… although now at my age, I realized it was actually a very good thing I was doing. With children in the playroom who were feeling good enough, I did fine arts with them. Arts was easy for me because it was my language since the age of 8 when I picked up a pencil, painted for the first time … the age I began school… the children loved arts and their smiles and laughter filled me even though many of them will not make it alive or live with a permanent health solution out of the hospital.

Arts , Film Directing, Consciousness – Shattering the Unbreakable Into Pieces, & Miracle of Miracles.

My life took many turns. I left medical science and got a master’s degree (MFA) in film directing and producing for screen and stage…. I was feeling a need to make movies to uplift humanity and empower women… Divinity started to find a voice in me again but it took a devastating life experience to shatter my soul into pieces in order to rebuild me. In college, I was gifted with a life in my own womb. Still being a fragile and insecure young woman (contrary to whom I was as a child), I fell deeply under the pressure of those around me to not enjoy my pregnancy or keep it despite all my protestations and proposal for many other solutions than termination.  After I acquiesced to the wills of those around me, my Soul broke into pieces.  I realized what a tremendous danger women are in when they lose their will power. Without their inner power, women lose the ability to make the world better, they lose the ability to bring their inner gifts to the world, they lose their identity and become shells. The desire to support women to unleash their inner power awakened within me, however, I needed to awaken my own divinity first.  In the process of rebuilding me, I met my third inner guru, Hazrat Sultan Bahoo … I woke up from a dream in which he spent a lot of time with me. Upon awakening Hazrat Sultan Bahoo told me when I asked “who are you?”  He announced his name and told me there were 2 ways to spell it… there were no internet info on such a person at that time… he is a Sufi Master I will learn years later and indeed he does say in his writings what happens when one chooses how to spell his name… How I chose to spell his name was correct for my life purpose unbeknownst to me then… About the same time, my past life connection to the ancient Kemetic Gods/people (Egyptian) awoke and they came to help put me together. Then, I discovered SRF of Paramahansa Yogananda when Krishna (whom I did not know then) awoke within me like a fire… I ended up at Lake Shrine in Pacific Palisades and discovered my beloved Jesus, Krishna, God, and all faiths were celebrated there…

Wanting to grow more my authentic self and to come into womanhood, I embarked on a trip to interview wise people about the meaning of wisdom and how to become wise.  Needless to say, I passionately fell in love with each person that I sat down to interview. I no longer cared about wisdom because Love took possession of me literally to a point that I had to remind myself at the end of the day to eat because I had no hunger. I was filled with Divine Love. The film became “Conscious Love” and was distributed by Gaia /Vivandi .

Then, I ended in Manhattan and worked with prime ministers visiting the UN to plead for the well-being of their countries and peoples…. Great eye-opening into the state of the world and the truth behind all the turmoil in the world, coupled with the perspective of having being raised by a mother who worked at the World Bank and at the IMF, and a father who was Peace Corps director in two countries … then CRS director in a country torn by wars…

My need to use my skills to support humanity in a bigger way one day awoke this time with no illusion to what is really happening politically versus capitalism. The upliftment of women and children in disfranchised nations is dire for humanity’s wellbeing.

My return to California gave me another experience of how the banking industry treats economically disadvantaged people… which broke my heart… this job was short-lived.

Then, God made it very clear I am to become a mother when I was not even dating anyone. Fast forward, the conception and birth of my child proved to me once again how powerful Divinity is in the midst of all of us regardless of our conscious knowledge of It or not, and the miraculous embodiment of the Soul.

How Ayurveda chose me.

Years later, I got sick due to the overuse of my body for completing a monumental project…. Doctors took all kinds of tests but could not find the cause. I was offered all kinds of medications and even surgery suggestion… I spent hundreds of dollars for no solution. Doing basic tasks such as feeding my child or driving him to school was a problem because I was exhausted, in pain, and dizzy with blurry visions. I had no strength to climb stairs without taking breaks and trying to breath…

One day, I came home with hundreds of dollars’ worth of medications … when I tried to take one of the pills, a voice screamed “NO” and asked me to treat myself with Ayurveda. I did not know what Ayurveda was, so I listened and I ordered a book on Ayurveda. Within a week of using simple Ayurvedic nutrition and lifestyle changes, I cured myself of my mysterious ailment.

I fell in love with Ayurveda! I enrolled in 1 year course of Ayurvedic self-care with my amazing teacher Acharya Chunya whose book I had read and used to treat myself. Her book felt authentic and servant of true Ayurveda.

After experiencing Ayurveda’s powerful healing modalities, I decided to return to school and study Ayurveda formally. This was the right medicine to practice. I attended Maharishi International University and got a Master of Science in Ayurveda and Integrative Medicine. At the same time that I was attending MIU, I got licensed as an EMT through UCLA’s David Geffen School of Medicine. I further enrolled in another college to deepen all Western science knowledge as when I was a student at George Washington University. To understand better people, I trained and became trauma informed professional. After completing those courses and graduating with a master’s degree of science (MS), I took further Ayurvedic training with other Vaydias (Indian medicine doctors) from India to deepen my knowledge and skills. Thus, I became a registered Ayurvedic Doctor per the requirement of Per the guidelines of WHO (World Health Organization) and AYUSH (Indian Ministry of Ayurveda, Yoga & Naturopathy, Unani, Siddha and Homeopathy) through AAPNA (Association of Ayurvedic Professionals of North America).

Ayurveda and Integrative Medicine are a perfect blend of understanding how modern Western (allopathic) medicine treats diseases, how to navigate conventional medicine to understand the patient and find solutions for the same ailments but with Ayurvedic methods that treat the root cause of the disease rather than the symptoms or perform emergency medical treatments, one that allopathic medicine is essential for.  Ayurveda and its various modalities take the whole individual from spirit, mind, body and its environment. From here, Ayurveda aims to partnering with patients/clients and work to eliminate the root cause of their disease.

I am deeply honored that Ayurveda chose me, and I am grateful to the Great Divine Masters who brought this knowledge to humanity. Ayurveda means knowledge of life and it belongs to all beings to use for their betterment for understanding their own divinity within the Universe and their relationship to their bodies and how to maintain proper health for a long-fulfilled life, find contentment and understand life from here and beyond.

I am deeply honored to sacredly take this journey with my patients/clients to support them towards holistically healing their physical, emotional, psychological, and spiritual ailments. Ayurveda empowers you to take charge of your health and your wellbeing from deep within, from your authentic divine self-embodied in the human body.

Pranam ( My Soul bows to your Soul).